The crazy world

Narcissists are literally the “criminals” who walked away “crime free” as the damage that they have caused to their victims will never be accountable for … There are no measuring scales to determine the emotional & mental damage the narcissists have done to their targeted victims and in this current world there is no medicine to this illness of ours, that’ why most answer to narcissism is NO CONTACT RULE

Now looking back at what I have done, I was never grateful but spiteful towards Sree Maa and Shri Ji for being my guiding light to come out from my murk. I knew that there is something dark inside me that needed to be looked at and seek Sree Maa and Shri Ji’s help.

Sadly when Sree Maa and Shri Ji trusted that I wanted to make the change and give me encouragement and guidance, I backed out and betrayed Sree Maa and Shri Ji.

Just like how Dallia and Joy Kuo betrayed the Love and trust showered upon them by Sree Maa and Shri Ji, they choose to run a smear campaign against Sree Maa and Shri Ji as their Egos are hurt, all they desire is to seek revenge, retaliate and punish those who go against their wishes and to those whom they deem responsible for peeling off their fake masks. Dallia and Joy Kuo make all efforts to ensure that their evil plans succeed in creating damages to Sree Maa, Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion, when they make the media platforms as their tool to run a smear campaign.

Sree Maa and Shri Ji are the ONLY victims of our games, we were using flying monkeys, gas lighting each other and innocent pulsars, exploiting Sree Maa and Shri Ji’s kindness. Unfortunately both Dallia and Joy Kuo did not STOP and choose to behave in a despicable and shameless manner, they kept copies of Kosmic Fusion intellectual properties and claim as theirs (their agenda is to bring it to other places to start anew overseas) and exploit the teachings received from Sree Maa for their personal gain…

Both Dallia and Joy Kuo has fabricated stories to make themselves look like victims, slandering and tarnishing Sree Maa and Shri Ji’s good name for their evil games of revenge. It was a one-sided story as they never shared and be honest about what they have done to me and others …. which is so wrong! Now I shall share my side of the stories of my ordeal, how terrible I was treated by them, how they degraded me and break my self-esteem and self-confidence to the extent I have a phobia for public speech, how they use projection, triangulation to get what they wanted, how they played with my mind … and the story continues….

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Below are the common traits of Narcissist which I can relate to as I have some shades of them in me,

• Grandiosity

• Power and Control

• False sense of entitlement

• Jealous and Envious

• Lack of Empathy

• Exploitative

• Superiority Complex, arrogance

• Needed excessive of Admiration

• Fixated on fantasies of power, success, etc 

The above traits which I will discuss further in the next few blogs about what narcissistic traits Dallia and Joy Kuo had displayed towards Sree Maa and Shri Ji, Kosmic Fusion and volunteers of Kosmic Fusion.

ALL KNOWING - See No Evil, Hear No Evil, Talk No Evil

Have you ever wonder how humans are created in the first place?  Or appreciating this amazing body that we have or wonder how such complex systems within this small physical body of ours operates on its own, how the veins are the plan in such delicate manner that it did not cross each other's path???... Questions that were raised by Sree Maa to make us reflect... After pondering ... I believe there is something greater out there which this peanut brain of mine will never comprehend… There must be someone out there who is all knowing …. the all-knowing, omnipresence, omnipotent …

Beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji 

Now looking back, Sree Maa has always been the ALL Knowing. In the FiT (Facilitator- in- training) program, I recalled Sree Maa shared a photo of “See no Evil, Hear no Evil, Speak no Evil” to all of us. I was unable to see the hiint that Sree Maa was giving to me ... TO STOP these acts before I regret, which I choose to bypass.

In Sree Maa’s teachings, multiple times of readings are required in order to grasp the many different levels of teachings that Sree Maa shares … Forewarning always has been given to all of us, including the ones who have the potential to choose the wrong path, just like what Dallia and Joy Kuo had taken ...

 QUOTE from Sree Maa:
‘Hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil!’ What you did not learn as children were ‘Think no evil!’

On the hindsight, the message given was on 2 levels …

To the VICTIMS - Practice Discernment 

1. DO NOT to be blinded by what the perpetrators have presented to them
2. DO NOT listen with face value without finding the truth or have an overview of what was being told
3. DO NOT fall into the trap of the perpetrators and spread information that has not been verified

Another red flag raised by Sree Maa
To Victims - Do not be recruited as Flying Monkeys
To Narcissists - Do not use innocent people as our Flying Monkeys 

To the PERPETRATORS - STOP before it's too late

1. DO NOT try to pull wool over the victims’ eyes
2. DO NOT try to fill the victims’ ears with toxic lies and rumours
3. DO NOT try to slander and run a smear campaign

In the teachings of Sree Maa, it is always about the righteous way of living, practise discernment and does not harm anyone due to personal agenda and while all these are being taught … Sree Maa and Shri Ji have put themselves on the table and being the sacrificial lambs so that we can learn something valuable.

Reminder to us by Sree Maa 

First encounter ....

Being in my delusion world, my made believed reality. I was in my game of search for spiritual liberation and that I am ready for the Absolute TRUTH… On the hindsight, I see that I am lying to myself and beloved Sree Maa and Shri Ji.

I made use of Sree Maa to get me a job in New Zealand with my sob stories, Sree Maa being kind as always recommended me to Rita, who is also a volunteer of Kosmic Fusion, instead of working for Rita and respecting Rita like a boss, I started to fight with her. I have breached the trust given by Sree Maa Shri Ji by behaving in an ungrateful manner.

Having traits of a co-dependent narcissist, I was triggered by Rita and all my narcissist traits flow out like a fountain, I could not suppress myself in front of her, my mask fell apart, I was in competition with her, wanting to put her down as I cannot stand to see her better than me, I was unable to stand Rita’s façade as I was able to see through her games because I was doing the same as well. My narcissism came back full power… my evil, mean nasty self was at its peak.

Dallia, who was the master of manipulator, a full blown malignant narcissist, saw the crack and took the opportunity to create wedges between Rita and myself, she poisoned me with negative comments about Rita, such as pointing out to me that Rita has trust issues with her when she was working in her shop (also with recommendation by Sree Maa), that Rita was wearing revealing clothes to get guys attention … all these while to hide the fact that she wanted to get even with both me and Rita.

Why would anyone want to do that? Being a Malignant narcissist, she cannot see anyone having something that she cannot have due to excessive jealousy and envy. Dallia needed to punish Rita for owning a business, house, car, wearing expensive clothes and carrying branded bags when she has to struggle to live within her means. Dallia needed to punish me for taking the job/position that she was eyeing in Rita's shop for so long, which she sees as her entitlement 

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This is just the beginning of me being played by the narcissists around me…. the hint which is given by Sree Maa Shri Ji that I choose to bypass ..... QUOTE:  “ when you are playing others, others are playing you”

Life changing moment

I was happily married to a nice guy for 5 years, I was being pampered and showered with Love and care. I started to show my true self to him, being demanding, unreasonable, throwing tantrums, giving him silent treatment or doing my sudden “disappearance” show to make him worried. Played with his mind, giving him additional stress on a daily basis.

Finally, he was unable to cope with my games and filed for a divorce. He maintained “NO CONTACT” rule because he sees that Narcissistic traits in me. He left a comment to me that “ I felt cheated into this marriage as you are not the same person I fell in love with” So true it is …. I was wearing the mask of a 2 faced liar … that Miss goodies shoes are NEVER me, it’s just a fake Identity that I used. To expose a Narcissist, spend time with us as we can NEVER keep our mask for 24 hours a day.

NO Contact Rule

Being a co-dependent narcissist, my world fell apart when my supplies left me. I went into hibernation, depression and cut myself off from people around me. This is the time I went crazy and nearly mental because of my self-inflicted pain and suffering as I was in total denial. I went on a spiritual spree to seek a remedy for this emptiness that I was feeling inside, I desperately wanted to heal myself… that’s where I found Sree Maa and Shri Ji in the exhibition. I always remember the first day I met  Sree Maa and Shri Ji, it was their warmth and welcoming vibes that attracted me to their booth.

I first went for tarot readings, aura soma reading sessions with Sree Maa as I wanted to find out more about what went wrong in my marriage due to the need to be in control. I wanted to make changes in my life with the easy way out. As usual, trying to find fault with anything except myself.

All these while, I was abusing  Sree Maa, Shri Ji’s kindness and went to the apartment,  join Sree Maa, Shri Ji for dinner, get a free consultation, healing sessions on my off days. My twisted mind justifying my act by saying  Sree Maa and Shri Ji are being so kind but never once reflected that I was imposing myself on Sree Maa and Shri Ji's personal time and space, taking full advantage of Sree Maa, Shri Ji as I was playing the victim of my failed marriage.

Sree Maa knew that I was in financial difficulty and offered me many of the free NEW clothing, accessories so that I can start to build my self-confidence in order to move on with my life.